Greetings from here. It has been a while.
When I last posted I had come off a rough Winter and Spring. I over committed and that became even more complicated. My daughter was in charge of a retreat and the planning and prep and team building for the volunteers took up ten Sundays which is one of my days off from work when I crash and sleep. Being the Winter I was already in a bad spot depression wise.
I was just supposed to be a helper on one team or another but that became more complicated. She had asked our minister to be one of the two spiritual directors but he resigned from our congregation and I was thrown into the role. I was certainly unsuited for the job and depression and anxiety increased.
Further stress from our congregation going through conflict as the minister left and existing complications being exasperated. A number of members left, including long time members and newer members. I know some found other places to worship.
So, one could say it was a train wreck of a time. A confluence of complications.
I know I was returning to a usual level of depression and anxiety as we entered Summer. Little things were improving and much of the grief stages had been lived through. Still, things bagged at me. Failures? It felt like it.
I do see August 2018 as a turning point. We went to Soulfest in New Hampshire which is a four day Christian music festival at Gunstock Mountain. It certainly put me in touch with my spiritual side in a more “heart” manner than usual “head” manner. (A combination of both is good).
The upbeat trend has continued since then. I got to get more physical and mental sunshine. I know I have had extended good periods in the past. I am enjoying this one. Still some nagging depression and anxiety but I am doing quite well.
Thanks.
On a religious note I thank God for this blessing and how much of the positive changes seemed just be given to me.
May the new year being you blessings.
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